Hypnotized

I still find myself reading my Scorpio horoscopes first when I open up the paper, and disturbingly, I find that I read your Libra explanation immediately after. I like to think that it gives me some insight into what you might be doing or thinking, or feeling in your little world. I imaginatively create a panoramic scenario where you're fitting your life's duties, and callings into whatever your Libran horoscope reads. I see you shuffling around, trying to bring order to your life when the moon is in whatever, or wherever. I picture you making changes, advancing careers, finding lovers, discarding failures, taking time to smell the roses, giving thanks, praying, letting people down, propping people up, forgiving, maintaining your health, and all the million other actions and events that weave a life. I've read it when I probably should have been reading someone else's at that present moment in time, but I always gravitate towards you.

I wonder if maybe you might do the same thing with anything, and remember me. Do you?

Although they're getting fewer and far between, I still have moments when my stomach turns over in knots, like it's doing a backflip off a cliff. It doesn't take anything concussive...it's mostly simplistic moments when you come rushing back into my head and heart, and my brain releases some chemical akin to adrenaline that makes my stomach feel like it was hit with lightning. A song, or a smell, or a certain line from a movie that we watched together.

I wonder if I'm still madly in love with you?
or
I wonder if maybe I'm madly in love with the idea of you?