From the moment I woke up today, after jumping ship on the shitty dream I had, my mood has spiraled tremendously. I just want this day to stop being, so that I can close my eyes, forget about it, and move on to the next. I just want there to be better days like I've had, but different from those days in that they're filled with an "unexperienced better." I hate depression...it rings in my ears. I don't want to be in anybody's way. I want everyone to be content. I don't want to trouble anybody...I guess this stems from my dream...it was utterly shitty. Everything's got my head spinning, and I don't know why. This is terribly introspective and open, but I'm feeling pretty fucking low today. I don't think I should even care, but for some reason I think I might. I'm not sure what I'm even sad about...that seems to be the case lately. Actually, I had been feeling pretty good about everything until today. There's always momentum swings and they seem to be getting less severe, but they hit like a fucking sack of bricks when it comes down on me. My concentration is splintered and I'm reeling because of it...today anyways.
It'll pass and tomorrow will be better. It sure as hell can't get any worse.
2 comments:
your crappy-ass reality-based dreams are contagious. expect a letter from my lawyer. and the one i had even featured a high school marching band panic attack, because i had to explain why i wasn't going to be participating in summer band to janet owen. go f-ing figure...
Nice idea with this site its better than most of the rubbish I come across.
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