Wake UP You Dumb Shit!!

It's time to wake up. Long from the slumber of longing, long ago. Man, clear your eyes...stop being so nearsighted...stop being so idealistic. Reality paints a very different picture than that you see when you're sleepwalking, or even the picture that you WANT to see. It might change quite a bit if you looked with your mind instead of your heart. You've been sleepwalking too long. Longer than you should. I don't understand how I can't see what's two inches from my face. Maybe I need glasses to see better. Or maybe I just need to reach out and feel it in front of me. I feel it about once every month or so. I recoil in pain every time I do feel it. That's why I need to wake up. There's so much more to look forward to. So many more things with SO much more MEANING and SIGNIFICANCE. Do you enjoy that feeling? Do you foolishly trust that it's going to get you somewhere? Do you trust anything at all? I don't have an ounce of blame to pass to anyone else. I let myself in the door...almost like I'm blindly steering myself in that direction, even when I know what the outcome is going to be. I allow myself to be disappointed. I'm going to see what I can do about changing this...I'm fucking smarter than this.